one includes a tap dancing scene in the middle of a bowling ally and one includes entering a jail and leaving with the interviewers as helpful castaways. i lack generic confidence. instead of asking if you want to hear something i hear something by myself. the longer im home during the evenings the more i learn about cooking asparagus. and then i feel lucky to know an Italian sud- o chef bay to breaker. and how does this all tie in? the problem is that i missed the birthday party of my life titled: arlo and celina's eighties get away. SHIT. i would've paid to see baba dressed as Tina Turner-----> hid away at alberto's final get away/ party mania for the weekend filled with lazy boys television and a quiet night of alfredo's Texas style mafia burgers. If you say you fucking hate Spain you don't know shit. TRUST ME. the longer i'm here the more i realize what places not to be at. example: independece hosting an oasis album realase party. SHIT. who can stand to listen to that for twelve hours straight? who can afford to pay five euros for a heiniken. NOT ME. so i left after my favorites yanked me. round two. the bowling ally scene: describing it with one word : analogy. why? go to the dictionary and figure it out yourself. word reference me word reference me.
ok if i dont get out of this office. ill get nowhere.
seeing alberto for the last time before he goes to leave to rome for five months with no mercy taken. hell miss the hot chorizo his mother always makes him, ill miss his milk and honey.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Friday, September 26, 2008
if you want out then i want out too.
ive been recieving a lot of emails--- concerning emails. some good some bad some that feel like a train is runnning over my balls. but none the less, regardless of what youre saying, who ever you may be, and all of you, i think its enough to fill you up with a quick update of the wide eyed occurrences of my life:
living with zec and tati. they have a real nice flat. all the furniture was included in their building and theres this big garden with a wood shack which has a washer and the other day i learned how to use it rejuvenating my colors and darks. i ussually try to keep tidy and am not doing extremely horribly. i keep my folded clothes on an iron bored right next to the dining room table with the huge hovered lamp and i sometimes imagine it to be hungry. during october ill have to watch the cat. i use to be really allergic to it until i went to the pharmacy saying "tengo allegisias a los gatos. necessito una pildoras." check SP. i suck.
and now its ok. i worked in dubliners for one day. one day because i wa s getting paid three euros an hour waitressing my ass off from 7- 4am. i went to the owner asking for my rights and he let me go. that was my first practical ending. asides from that ive been sending and resending my cv to a million places. but nothing happens getting me up there in shit. out of every one hundredth person, when handing out flyers, atleast three will be interested. self motivation, so to speak. speaking of a new plan.
now that jason wants out in our plans for the future i am forced to be self assuring. sure, this is what i wanted but its like ordering the best thing on the menu, eating it, and realizing that you wanted something else.
last night me adn arriba went to see the new woody movie and after went to our favorite place. which could or couldnt be. maybe it isnt ii think its top five. we talked about the differences between now and then and carried on with a fight on repetition in language and how im not into anything but the chinese spaghetti sold always on gran via. the day before that was ochos wednesday annual party at nells. i always hate these things becuase the rap music bleeds into my ears reminding me of the times we would listen to fabolous and ashanti while dreaming in your bed. but a job is ajob and its m y duty to get foreigners in and to get forigners in and a cycle reminding me of recycling. earlier before that i went to a real madrid match. them winning 7-1 and sure i really didnt care about football. but this time i felt like i wa s back home in the giants stadium with arlo and jakob. the best thing about it was i was with this real overwhelmingly posh bunch who wore things you wouldnt believe and got seated in the vip section receiving free drinks tapas and a glass of champagne after the wining. i wore the wrist bracelet for two days having to show it off.
mom wants me to move to london, thinking that itll be stabler for me if i were to recieve guidence from her good friend joel. also she thinks hes perfect for me as he is developed around the creative fields i drive from. im thinking yes. i wouldn't mind another change. maybe like the movie its me who also doesnt know what she wants and instead its that i know what i dont. i know that i have to keep moving. the second i feel relaxed the second something goes wrong. im tired of thinking about today. its better to think about tomorrow.
living with zec and tati. they have a real nice flat. all the furniture was included in their building and theres this big garden with a wood shack which has a washer and the other day i learned how to use it rejuvenating my colors and darks. i ussually try to keep tidy and am not doing extremely horribly. i keep my folded clothes on an iron bored right next to the dining room table with the huge hovered lamp and i sometimes imagine it to be hungry. during october ill have to watch the cat. i use to be really allergic to it until i went to the pharmacy saying "tengo allegisias a los gatos. necessito una pildoras." check SP. i suck.
and now its ok. i worked in dubliners for one day. one day because i wa s getting paid three euros an hour waitressing my ass off from 7- 4am. i went to the owner asking for my rights and he let me go. that was my first practical ending. asides from that ive been sending and resending my cv to a million places. but nothing happens getting me up there in shit. out of every one hundredth person, when handing out flyers, atleast three will be interested. self motivation, so to speak. speaking of a new plan.
now that jason wants out in our plans for the future i am forced to be self assuring. sure, this is what i wanted but its like ordering the best thing on the menu, eating it, and realizing that you wanted something else.
last night me adn arriba went to see the new woody movie and after went to our favorite place. which could or couldnt be. maybe it isnt ii think its top five. we talked about the differences between now and then and carried on with a fight on repetition in language and how im not into anything but the chinese spaghetti sold always on gran via. the day before that was ochos wednesday annual party at nells. i always hate these things becuase the rap music bleeds into my ears reminding me of the times we would listen to fabolous and ashanti while dreaming in your bed. but a job is ajob and its m y duty to get foreigners in and to get forigners in and a cycle reminding me of recycling. earlier before that i went to a real madrid match. them winning 7-1 and sure i really didnt care about football. but this time i felt like i wa s back home in the giants stadium with arlo and jakob. the best thing about it was i was with this real overwhelmingly posh bunch who wore things you wouldnt believe and got seated in the vip section receiving free drinks tapas and a glass of champagne after the wining. i wore the wrist bracelet for two days having to show it off.
mom wants me to move to london, thinking that itll be stabler for me if i were to recieve guidence from her good friend joel. also she thinks hes perfect for me as he is developed around the creative fields i drive from. im thinking yes. i wouldn't mind another change. maybe like the movie its me who also doesnt know what she wants and instead its that i know what i dont. i know that i have to keep moving. the second i feel relaxed the second something goes wrong. im tired of thinking about today. its better to think about tomorrow.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
im the king of bad jokes dont try to steal my throne," youre jealous i feel it"
dear arriba,
its been months that were nearly seconds next to the time of another's and never remembering one day. but i remember this--the times as a kid when you walked the earth in a raincoat and ballet shoes. smiling easy, as they snapped at you, shot , after, shot. dont forget one thing. when you see unknown scattered bruises on your golden shoulders dont look lost. some find it hard to see and others to eat. and others to think working best under persuasion. pure perspective dependence based on absolutely everything. being general means being open and thats why i like you dont think otherwise. not why i like you more why im like you.
its been months that were nearly seconds next to the time of another's and never remembering one day. but i remember this--the times as a kid when you walked the earth in a raincoat and ballet shoes. smiling easy, as they snapped at you, shot , after, shot. dont forget one thing. when you see unknown scattered bruises on your golden shoulders dont look lost. some find it hard to see and others to eat. and others to think working best under persuasion. pure perspective dependence based on absolutely everything. being general means being open and thats why i like you dont think otherwise. not why i like you more why im like you.
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
supposing the quantity
which isnt anythin yet. clouds are a deep gray and i knew it was going to start hailing any second as i was walking home and felt spit run through my head.. one two five twelve hundred until i was soaked under a wetness so irresi s ti b le and as everyone was running to the closest tree. i stopped to get my feet wet. mmmm.
alberto told me this today:
"i ask very much, i look like a 45 year old single man waiting for her grandma to die and get the money...
i ask very much, i look like a 45 year old single man waiting for her grandma to die and get the money... "
living with zec and tati.
im so lucky.
if you made that up i love you if not forget it.
"ah... i just wasn't sure... there are some little frontiers built by different languages that i still have to... demolish"!
demolish my face into our new ideas of the walls open ceiling with grass and sand inside a fish bowl to be quiet yet noisy. its just like they say wasting time is wasting money.
"and i don't like saying "yeah yeah" when i really haven't understood
it's... peligroso
cause sooner or later, the other people will get ya
........................"
SHIT i cant take this smart ass,s answers, its enough to keep anyone awake.
"i ask very much, i look like a 45 year old single man waiting for her grandma to die and get the money...
i ask very much, i look like a 45 year old single man waiting for her grandma to die and get the money... "
living with zec and tati.
im so lucky.
if you made that up i love you if not forget it.
"ah... i just wasn't sure... there are some little frontiers built by different languages that i still have to... demolish"!
demolish my face into our new ideas of the walls open ceiling with grass and sand inside a fish bowl to be quiet yet noisy. its just like they say wasting time is wasting money.
"and i don't like saying "yeah yeah" when i really haven't understood
it's... peligroso
cause sooner or later, the other people will get ya
........................"
SHIT i cant take this smart ass,s answers, its enough to keep anyone awake.
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