south of market

ive been in this office more than all day long. for no apparent reason-- just to be somewhere in doors for internet and usage on my laptop.. wanting to go out tonight with somebody but nobodies reciprocating to the text messages that i haven't sent. im thinking it will be one of those solo nights where im off to meet strangers or to stare at everybody as they are cross socializing almost having fun. from the japanese spanish traveler to japan man link alberto sent me i got inspired to start takking more pictures as to document my days showing my readers-- if any really exist ---something visual-- as it sits better in the brain. like a little story of all the nothings ive been doing. today i made two maps of two possible shit irish pubs i could maybe work in. today while eating early dinner consisting of tuna and corn at six while chewing i met a man who asked me to take a picture of him with his phone in front of the very grand plaza espana fountain.i did and then after he talked to me in spanish and maybe he has a friend i can baby sit for. with these kinda things you never know if the person is real or fake. usually i can tell through the thick line but when its fine it leaves nothing to decipher.

been missing too much open spaces lately, but one to remember is this night which got me sick with a sickness that will most likely last forever:




illness for things that make me feel good about myself. this includes places like picnic, cafe's with a great window opener, cats: a new friendly animal, cleaning the house, and company. maybe i cant make decisions perfectly but im good at knowing what i want. in the meantime. i know what i want and the letters it begins with and teh way it looks. the way it looks becuas e iv e been picturing for a long while. . . its big and bold and yelling GET OVER HERE. GET ON IT. GOG O GO. you know things with hurry and speed to move me faster. without it ill be in my shell all day evaporating like a smokless joint. or even worSE a smokeless cigarette that does nothing. i like it when i go out and here people saying "i dont want this anymore" it makes me think, hey me too. .. then suddenly i flash out of that thought and im still in the office. what am i thinking. i should get out of here. im just waiting for this great video to load. found what to do: meeting daniel and mia for drinks in their house and then maybe ill take them somewhere cool. have you heard of HOLYSHIT? if not look up the song rough and tumble on hypem, its so good for right now. esp if you are feeling tight and secure. it loosens you up in a good way. so you wont complain. .

iwish i didnt have to go to MEXICAN SEXY NIGHT at nells this Wednesday. jobs like this SUCK.