"this is what i call a no-where-thinking"

remember when we went to that fair in la latina and came back a couple times later and sat in that posh bar with the american girl who was too drunk to smoke a cigarette -ate it backwards and couldnt get hit on. usually when i have a thousand things to do i minimize it to one, focusing on memories such as the ones that speak through a silent luster of chill. always cold because my boxes havent been sent--> to the house that i dont have---> through the mom that i do have and still where the fuck can i live?

i can live anywhere but i want to live with you.
noticed a final thing about cooking the more you watch the more you grow the more you feel better about whta your eating while your creating and its a beautiful hobby ive got to learn spanish bettter. he tells me to learn spanish better and i agree. fully:


i have another post card ready for you:
you dont have to read this this is just for me:



you were talking about giving explanations to people

what people
generally
people who ask me questions
this includes starngers
to fmily
to friends
im being wholly general
just the questions u get
you know the normal questions
that run on top of eachother
like when you fall on your face
and get a black eye
and everyone’s like
what happened what happened
and you have to give the same old explanation 96 times
for nothing
but general curiosity
im not saying im a victim
im just the same
i would ask too
maybe not asking would be impolite
you know
its just something i think about


hey hey hey...

this is what i call a no-where-thinking

i have many of them each day

its normal
its annoyong to me
so much that i feel bi polar
it really makes me feel bi polar no kidding.
i mean one second i want to live in spain and i love it and the next i want to go home

me too...

and yes, as weird as it seems these questions
these question have a lot to do with it
because it gets me to the use less thinking and then i just dont know
and then you know im home all day dresed and ready
but i dont leave the house
because i dont know i just cant
go
i sit here for whiles upon whiles thinking about things that overall dont affect me